I have this quiet fear…as I sit with my coffee, journals, laptop, candle lit & dirty dishes waiting.. the fear that I’ll wake up one morning in November and I’ll be in the same spot ~ kitchen table, coffee, journals, laptop, candle lit, dirty dishes waiting. I am so unmotivated.
They aren’t really fighting me on the subject either ~
It has been a fantastic summer too with some trips, family time & days full of imagination.
The last two years of schooling have been so full. Hear me when I say, not bad just full. There have been extras for me in the form of more classes, weekend retreats, and odd jobs for the oldest (therefore driving for me). Truth is, there will always be extras in some form. I suppose I will realize that one day.
I know I won’t really keep this up until November, even if I have this quiet fear (which, in reality, I sort of cherish) September will arrive with it’s birthday, new schedule and added commitments..it will be welcomed by some and denied by others..
here’s to hoping I can enjoy my coffee.
“Why is it that so many people think of doing things and do not do them? Why do they not have the power to put into practice the things they think of doing? If one just thinks about it, the chance slips by. From the time they are children, people are o…rdered about by their parents to do this, to do that… They develop resistance, and (the) resistance habit becomes subconscious, until they are unable to perform immediately even those things they think of doing themselves. (what we need is ) the habit of action ~ this, I think, is the most important thing we must acquire. Life’s success or failure actually depends on thi…s one thing. Start Now, today!” – Shinichi Suzuki
He goes on to say, “True, it is easier to say than to do, but the more you do it, the more of a habit it will become. It is an indispensable skill. To know something and not put it into practice is a weak point, but knowledge is mere knowledge, and is not to be confused with ability and skill. Not until knowledge becomes an inseparable part of one … is it an ability or skill. There are plenty of people who know a lot about baseball & can criticize a game; however, the spectator lacks the intuitive skill, judgement, and physical coordination of the experienced player. A fine society is not built by people who just think about what is right to do.”
You know grace is a pretty simple concept, but to so many it is so hard to receive or accept. I think this is a similar matter. If you see someone in need & think, gosh. I should make a meal for them, do it. If you think of writing a thank you note to someone, do it. If you think of learning to play the guitar, do it. Don’t spend time on thinking & wishing & planning to… take action!
I’m actually drawing again!
“Szia” is good-bye in Hungarian. (and yes, there are mistakes and yes he is floating a bit… rough draft, ok?)
A dear friend of mine owns Magyar Marketing and asked if I would doodle out some critters for t-shirts & the like. Therefore I have gladly been doing so.
I’m having a blast.
Another friend of mine has a new project about to be launched, check it out too! Maybe it will be the nudge you need to get your creative juices flowing!
Often it is extremely difficult to carve time out for me. Or, often I feel guilty for carving time out for me. This year I received a free day planner from Mission India that has a read-through-the-Bible schedule set for each day. Even though I didn’t know how I would fit that in every day, I knew it is something I need to do, something I want to do. Therefore, I decided it would be a bit of a “resolution”.
Around the same time, I found the idea of recording “1,000 gifts”. The idea came from this amazing blog . It is a type of gratitude journal. I made one for my parents by covering a composition journal with scrapbook paper, similar to this one I did last year:
composition notebooks turned into journals
I also made one for myself and will use it to record my 1,000 gifts as well as use it as an art journal. Art journals can be found here .
And lastly, there ended up being a “resolution” that tied the above two ideas together… the whole family is giving up screen time between 5 & 7 each evening. During that time I will be able to get in my reading & journaling! Time carved out magically…all on it’s own.
(I love this photo of the kids early one morning, I think it is so cute how they piled into the hallway)
I emailed Sarah this week with apologizes for not keeping up via email or flickr or blog, and she replied with those kind, and very wise words.
So what has our reality been full of?
I’d love to share with you!
Day trips with family to St. Louis.
My husbands entire family spend a day at the Magic House!
Weekends at campLucy & Parker, Jon & I spent last weekend in the woods of Seymour, Indiana at Camp Lakeview. This will be the last year all four of us can go together because Lucy will be too old for this program next year.
This is one amazing camp!
Parker has been learning to read & he is doing very well. I had a hard time deciding what to use with him for reading as he shows some of the same struggles Grace did when she was younger. Finally I ditched all my “ideas” and pulled out the old pathway readers (which the girls love). We sat down on the front steps and just plugged away at each little sentence. Turns out he likes the book too & has set a personal goal to finish the book in 10 days! (not inlcuding weekends)
He’s also decided that when he finishes it he should get a new lego star wars toy.. sounds like a good plan to me.
We’ve kept up with our art group every other week throughout the summer as well. The kids seem to enjoy the projects & love time together with friends.
Many of the projects we do come from these two websites:
that artist woman
art projects for kids ~ Kathy has been doing a great series (for kids and adults!)on Art Journaling the last few weeks. Check it out!
I also use these book sources:
New Artist’s Handbook
What have been the highlights of your summer? What about fall? Any new adventure coming your way?
Our fall will start with Lucy turning nine September 1st!
Then Grace, my mom and I will head to Chicago for a few days. The Museum of Science and Industry is hosting the Harry Potter Exhibit and we decided it was really too close to pass up.
After Chicago the kids and Nana will start planning for our annual halloween party, then Parker’s birthday and then holiday festivities begin! Maybe we can slow that train down a bit and just enjoy the here and now, eh?
It’s just one of those mornings where I feel like I’m in need. Do you have those? So many things tumbling around in my head, I just need to do something different.
Do I need a change? Maybe a shift is around the corner and I’m sensing that. I do need some coffee, and maybe the little ones and I will take a road trip today. It’s Superman Days in Metropolis IL this weekend (2 hours away) maybe we’ll jump in the car and go.
Jonathan & Grace come home from Jamaica in two days. It has been such a weird week with them gone, and I just can’t wait to get them home again.
So tell me, what do you do when you feel antsy like this? Do you get antsy? Are there times when you know you need a change, but not sure where to go with that feeling? Or is it really just about the coffee…. I wonder.