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5 months

 I have had a gazillion post ideas running through my mind. ( my son, at a young age, once asked if a little man with a sign ran across my brain and out my ear when I said “running through my mind”)  But right here, right now, I need to post this, is it has been 5 months since the day I found out my best friend had cancer.

   This is the text I received that day. I’m saving it so we can delete it the day she is cancer-free. I went to chemo with her last week and sat, kind of amazed, kind of stunned at how quickly we’ve adapted to this new reality. There she sat, hooked up to a line, chairs around her filled with others hooked up… getting “juiced”. There we planned the summer with her kids, talked about next fall, house payments, cars that quit running, vacations… she hopped up, unplugged the unit and pushed it to the bathroom with her. I looked around at the others, sleeping, alone, with family, a teenager. She said how she thought it would be so much harder to go through “this”/ cancer/ chemo, if she was older. I said,  ” They probably think the same of you.” How is it really, that in 5 months one gets used to chemo appointments, sticks, shots, arranging a place for the kids… her sweet husband works nights, but has shifted his sleeping hours so he can take care of kids, go to chemo, drive them to school.. 5 months.

 One thing hasn’t changed in 5 months. Emily’s faith. She knows that God’s got her back, that He will be glorified through this trial. She never has doubted that. But as a bystander, I’ve been mad at God. What is He thinking? Really, cancer for a 35yo mother of two? But then I’ve learned to be still & trust that He will triumph, He will conquer this beast. 

 I have seen amazing things in my friend. She’s a people pleaser you see. Not one to rock the boat. But she’s learning to stand up for herself and her family & I like that.

 I’m proud of her & I’m learning from her.



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I started a new project last night for 2011. It’s a photo a day for the whole year. I’ve tried this once before & didn’t last too long, but I’m willing to give it another go. I also read a book this weekend & thought maybe I’d try to finish a book a week this year too. Pretty lofty… but within the realm of possible.

 Today I will do lesson plans & practice & visit my grandmother & go with the family to see Tangled ~ a full day!! Hence the need to get my photo in now & even a quick blog post.

I’m also keeping friends in prayer as one of our town’s churches burned down this morning. My friend Jewell’s dad was the pastor there for years and the current pastor is a guy Jonathan graduated with. We know three families who are extremely active there as well. We all know the church isn’t made of the building, it is the members… but it is still a loss we all will grieve.

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